Healing

She no longer fought the memories of
the good and bad times
Beat herself up because some of the reminiscences
 had her longing for his touch
No, she’s never forgotten the pain he caused
or the tears she cried
It was futile for her to sit there and try to deny,
they did have some good times
Selfishness was the weapon in his war; hers was
strength he didn’t know she possessed
Haunted thoughts of him drifted into her sub consciousness
 only to come alive in her dreams
When she closed her eyes to sleep
Running away from facing feelings unresolved,
only made her realize she needed to exorcise those demons
So, she could move on with her life
To say she held hate in her heart
would only give him power,
to say she had loved him once upon a time might be truth
But its forgiveness that she had to find in her
to get back what was lost when she turned her power over to him
And he abused it so cruelly
Had to learn to love life again
Even when the darkest days threaten to engulf her 
Age and maturity watered with the tears of growth
Learning who she was and what she stood for
Imagining good can come from bad
Not letting the past recur in her future
Giving it all to God for without Him she wouldn’t be healing
 

Being Played

 Today I love you

In one breath

Tomorrow, I despise you

Give you sex when you want it

Withhold it you don’t own it

Rent it out to you

For the moment

Give me money when I ask you

When you ask me

I don’t have it, I’m broke

Broke

Broke

Broke

Turn on the charm

To disarm you

Then withdraw

When you displease me

Hot and cold

When I need to be

You can be the man

When I let you

But we all know

Who wears the pants?

Don’t we

Don’t we

Don’t we

You’re weak

I let you think

You are Hercules

Hercules

Hercules

Hercules  

Take your money

Call you honey, baby

Make it seem everything

Is peaches and cream

So, you won’t discover

My true colors

Give you children

To tighten the noose

Around your heart

Heart

Heart

Heart

Now I’ve got you

You’re all mine

Long as you don’t

Recognize my deceitful side

Deceitful side

Deceitful side

Deceitful side

 Play this game forever

Because you will never

Leave me

Leave me

Leave me

Your third eye is closed

And I have bolted the door

And swallowed the key

 

 

Falling Into Love

 Facets of many colors

Angels do discover

Languages spoken through the ages

Loudly proclaiming

Infrangible declaration

Nexus soul validation

Gift received as given

 

Intermingle of lives

New beginnings

Ties that bind mind heart soul body

Overcoming any obstacle

 

Listening to the stillness within

Ostentatious passion will not be hidden

Visions of happily ever after

Exchanging of vows in the end

 

Isn’t it better to fall into love than falling out, and more notably staying in love?

Falling Out of Love

Faithfully forever

Affinity connection

Lariat placed around soul

Labyrinth of emotions

Impel heart that is dying

Narrative vague subliminal

Grotesques images infiltrated

 

Odyssey together never taken

Unfulfilled dreams deserted

Thievery of years wasted

 

Ossuary holds what remains of desires

Fidelity turns to fallacy belief

 

Languish passions dwindle to resentment

Overt gestures scream abandonment

Virulence acrimony in the end

 Evanescent to falling out of love

Observation

Smoothness of your skin invites temptation

Your lips speak eroticism

The smell of your perfume ignites the flame

In your smile reveals hidden secrets

Hands express a hunger to explore

Deep treasures

Flowing locks of sensuality

Only rival inner exquisiteness

Sway of hips to a silent tempo

Dancing legs from the heavens

To grace the earth

Vivacious, inhale exhale

Your beauty excels

Watching you is putting me through hell

Come to me in this moment of need

Release the frustration of you so near

Pounding of heart deafens the agony

Wanting for this to be over

This is more than a mere observation

I’m an addict you’ve become a drug

So give me my fix and let me fly

Like the birds that grace the universe

Oh now you know that’s the way

I like it here let me do the honors

Slowly seductively, weaving a spell

Take you into my arms peel away

The layers of defense strip you naked

Lay you down observing every inch of your soul

Last chance to behold sanity

One taste of you and there’s no

More reality diving deeper and deeper

Into observation 

The Ocean

 

Immense body of water

Endless in all directions

Echoes thoughts

Of wonderment

Casting its hypnotic spell

Drifting on the ocean’s waves

Careless days

And youthfulness

Designing sandcastles in the sand

Watching the seagulls as they land

In the distance can be heard

The laughter of children

Chasing after sand crabs

Sitting, meditating, on the meaning

Of life

In vast view of the ocean

God Can You Hear Me

 

I'm tired I need peace of mind

My soul is weary, and my spirit broken

My knees are raw from all the kneeling

I've lost my voice from all the crying

God, can you hear me I'm afraid of the unknown

Today I hunger for spiritual food

I can't picture tomorrow being all sunshine

Yesterday I lived in sorrow

I'm broken and I don't know how

To be fixed

God, can you hear me

Please tell me what I should do

The road is lonely, and I'm confused

I keep running in the wrong direction

And the voices that keep

On telling me to be strong

I ignore

I have no home

And my children I morn for

My heart is empty except

For the despair that's taken up

Dwelling in its core

God, can you hear me

My steps are slow and uneven

I'm the walking dead

I've given everything that I am

Only to receive ashes in return

Drowning in the bottom

Of a bottle hoping to find answers

Drinking my problems away

Just for a moment

God, can you hear me

I don't think I can with stand

Much more

I don't think I can continue

In this pain

Life was never meant

To be this hard

This complicated

God, can you hear me

Can you hear

Me

Can you hear

Me now…