Tarnished Memories and Broken Hearts

 So many times, good memories

Are overshadowed by broken glass and

Shards of  pain

Joyous moments clouded by ugly recriminations

Happy reflections sadden by disdain

Laughter caught in the throat

Does not bubble forth as carbonated water

Tarnished remembrances chastise recollections

Ruined heart and soul excuses relayed half ass

 

Dynamite explodes revealing true intentions

Cannot hide underneath lies

Feelings vulnerable weaken vessel of self

Shattered heart and corroded memories

 

 

 

 

 

Goodnight Sweet Dreams

 Some things not meant to be

Holding on to impossibilities

Chasing dreams always within

Reach yet not close enough

To grasp in palm of your hand

Standing on the other side

Of time making wishes

Futile when they fail

To materialize

You place a soft kiss on your dreams

 In the dark you whisper

To all your imaginings and desire

Good night sweet dreams…

Cry

 Go a head bare your soul

You don't have to be strong for the world

Give in to the emotions you have so valiantly

Fought off

Give in to the pain, that has no name

Tired? I know you are

Tired of trying to shoulder responsibility alone

Carrying around the guilt if you let everyone down

Fair? no it's not

You're the one who is up all night

Release that hurt

Don't be afraid

Cleansing your spirit is always ok

Go a head, the gods are listening

Sorrow, is something we all have inside of us

This is your healing, purge those feelings and

Cry

Fragments of Fragments

 Fragments of yesterday

Breathe into today

Bits and pieces of shattered

Dreams cascade from swollen eyes

Fragments of wishes oblivious of nirvana

Splinters of love lay at feet

Fragments catch the wind

Leaving a trail of pain

Slivers of hope peep between

Darkened clouds

Fragments of life piecing

Together the crumbs of tomorrow

As the crumbles of now disintegrates

Intertwined in the fragments of fragments

 

Dancing With the Devil

  You imagine you are so essential

I am going to set you open

You are evil, vile and

A child of God you are not

 

First mistake you made

Was putting the name of someone

I love in your mouth traversing a line

Maybe you do not know what it feels like

To lose someone you love

Were you high talking out

The side of your neck

People have died for less

And today their tombstones

Remain unclaimed

 

Mistake number two you

Should have never mentioned his name

 To begin with

Someone you have never met

You have no respect for those in

Life or death

Did not fathom your words would find

Themselves in my presence

But they did

Call yourself a woman

Not

You want to play as one but

Guess what

Sadly, you are lacking in

What it means to be a real female a mother

Come for me if you like

You are a sad waste of life

How do you raise your child?

The one who is raising herself

Well, I do not want to put

Your mothering skills on display

Oops you do not have any from what I can tell

I can take a lot of shit

You should know this

Beware

 

Mistake number three

You spoke of someone who

Was close to me

Like a son

Someone you never known

Yet you chose to disrespect

Our memories you have shitted on

Who does that?

Did it make you feel like a queen?

When you threw out his name with

The intention to injure

Did it feel good to know you caused pain?

That your aim hit more than one target

You must feel very proud

Sitting there high on your throne looking down

Say shit and disrespect, bitch from above

Come down to earth where it gets real

You are not the one

Now

You have met your match

The dead cannot speak for themselves

Now you are in the dance with the devil

So Long Mr. Charming

Who can say that being needed led to a breakdown?

In the beginning what was desired,

Prince Charming riding on a white stallion

Ready to slay dragons

And carry burdens

Only this prince didn’t have a clue on how

To ride a horse

And was afraid of his own shadow

In distress he left his princess

To fend for herself and slay her own dragons

What was the need for Prince Charming?

He couldn’t hold down his own fort

Lost the respect of his court

People laughed and made snide

Remarks behind his back

Jeered his ignorance

Still he remained clueless

Needed? Not any more

Now his princess was Queen

Of her own domain and ruled with

Passion and content

To everyone she was the true warrior

With strength and courage

As for Prince Charming he’s still

Trying to figure out how to ride a horse…

Wasted

Tragedy

Disastrous end of a love affair

Calamity in the wake of the fallout

Catastrophes bemoan the wind

Misfortune to the hearts involved

Heartbreak came at an expensive price

Ruin reputations bought for a night of illicit passion

Adversity fashioned the road to redemption

Mishap or coincidence lover’s duplicity revealed

Rage of uncontrollable obsession led to an

Upheaval of reprisal sorting out the victims

Cataclysmic tempo builds to a crescendo

Damage to lives unfold

Shattered emotions lay bare

Chaos ensued sorting out the fallen reflections

Bedlam erupted two souls entangled with each other

Pandemonium could not be stilled

Anarchy warped the minds of survivors

As they question why anyone did not see

The tragedy before it happened

 

Lyfe

 If lyfe was easy if lyfe was sweet

If there were no struggle or ugliness on the streets

If beauty in the world outweigh the poverty surround

Dreams of running through fields of lilies

Smelling a sweet red rose 

Lyfe we all wish to behold 

Lyfe is what we make it, shape, embrace it, take it, create it

Lyfe isn't easy and sweetness is rare to be found

We struggle each day with the horror around

Peace, we hear about seen rarely 

Lyfe, I want to bury my head and not

Listen to all the shit how lyfe is only

Meant for the rich

The poor must submit

Never will they get

To have what they wish

All bullshit

If lyfe was easy, if lyfe was sweet

There would be no crying in the streets

Mothers’ tears would not wash away the blood stains

Of her children spilled

The homeless would have a place to 

Lay their heads

The hungry would be fed

And the earth would give back its dead

Lyfe is reality

 

 

Early Up

Another day to

Be put to

The test

Alarm sings

It’s time to get up

Roll over and smile

Taking in the beauty

Lying next to me

Inhale the fragrance

Of promises

Wipe away

Last night’s kisses

No time to reflect

Today is calling

And cannot be

Put on hold

There is life

Beyond these walls

Sunshine seeps in

Reminding the world

Does not stop for those

Who procrastinate?

One last glance

At the clock

And now it is time

Start the day

Early up

 

 

 

If You

If you give me wings so that I might fly

If you give me a voice, I will sing with angels

If you give me a future I will dream

If you give me encouragement, I will become many things

If you sing my praises with empty words, I will have the wrong visions

If you knock me down, make it count

If you see into my heart and know it's worth

Then why question if I am virtuous

If you see my tears know that I have empathy

If you spit on my name let, there be a sound reason for it

If I curse you my justification will be pure

If I love, you there will be no beginning or end

Only infinity

If you give me, you I will give you who I am

 

 

 

 

 

Man Can Fly

 Wrestling with yourself

 Fighting who you should be

Indecisive on the course of reality

In a dream world you live

Struggling to exist

Nothing is making any sense

In the world you now subsist

In your mind somewhere lost

Trapped in a demented sphere

Crying out for help but

No one hears

Listening to voices that

 Are not there

Only in your mind do you hear

Whispers’ telling you lies

That man can fly

Going through a transformation

On a spiritual journey

Opening your mind to

Unknown entities as your

 Mentality is rocked with

 More confusion

Disillusioned to what is real

And you are asking yourself

Will I ever heal?

In the abyss you call home

Praying for the norm to

Return to your life

The whispers continue

To overpower your thinking

Voices becoming louder

Mingling with tears

You cry from frustration and pain

Relief will not come

As they tell you

Man can fly come join us

 

 

 

 

 

 

Healing

She no longer fought the memories of
the good and bad times
Beat herself up because some of the reminiscences
 had her longing for his touch
No, she’s never forgotten the pain he caused
or the tears she cried
It was futile for her to sit there and try to deny,
they did have some good times
Selfishness was the weapon in his war; hers was
strength he didn’t know she possessed
Haunted thoughts of him drifted into her sub consciousness
 only to come alive in her dreams
When she closed her eyes to sleep
Running away from facing feelings unresolved,
only made her realize she needed to exorcise those demons
So, she could move on with her life
To say she held hate in her heart
would only give him power,
to say she had loved him once upon a time might be truth
But its forgiveness that she had to find in her
to get back what was lost when she turned her power over to him
And he abused it so cruelly
Had to learn to love life again
Even when the darkest days threaten to engulf her 
Age and maturity watered with the tears of growth
Learning who she was and what she stood for
Imagining good can come from bad
Not letting the past recur in her future
Giving it all to God for without Him she wouldn’t be healing
 

Being Played

 Today I love you

In one breath

Tomorrow, I despise you

Give you sex when you want it

Withhold it you don’t own it

Rent it out to you

For the moment

Give me money when I ask you

When you ask me

I don’t have it, I’m broke

Broke

Broke

Broke

Turn on the charm

To disarm you

Then withdraw

When you displease me

Hot and cold

When I need to be

You can be the man

When I let you

But we all know

Who wears the pants?

Don’t we

Don’t we

Don’t we

You’re weak

I let you think

You are Hercules

Hercules

Hercules

Hercules  

Take your money

Call you honey, baby

Make it seem everything

Is peaches and cream

So, you won’t discover

My true colors

Give you children

To tighten the noose

Around your heart

Heart

Heart

Heart

Now I’ve got you

You’re all mine

Long as you don’t

Recognize my deceitful side

Deceitful side

Deceitful side

Deceitful side

 Play this game forever

Because you will never

Leave me

Leave me

Leave me

Your third eye is closed

And I have bolted the door

And swallowed the key

 

 

Falling Into Love

 Facets of many colors

Angels do discover

Languages spoken through the ages

Loudly proclaiming

Infrangible declaration

Nexus soul validation

Gift received as given

 

Intermingle of lives

New beginnings

Ties that bind mind heart soul body

Overcoming any obstacle

 

Listening to the stillness within

Ostentatious passion will not be hidden

Visions of happily ever after

Exchanging of vows in the end

 

Isn’t it better to fall into love than falling out, and more notably staying in love?