Free Verse

Flawed




We’re both flawed diamonds in rough formation
Maybe that’s our connection
Without a microscope our imperfections are not Visible
Seen with the naked eye
Defects from birth created in the womb
Blemished DNA
Errors we’re afraid to acknowledge
Doing so might give validation to what others see
Our failings, we point fingers at one another
Shifting the blame
We’re flawed the damaged reflection of
Two individuals on a collision course to disaster
Enabler of addictions
Crippled by no intervention
The end of the road is death
A black rose lay to rest on cold concrete
All flaws seep back into the earth







She

She sat alone a drink in her hand thinking about all her failed relationships
She took a long sip leaning back in her seat
Laughter bubbled inside of her as She thought of one of her lovers
Good in bed, but couldn’t keep a job; damn She was missing his good lovin
Not his dead beat ass
Another memory floated through her mind of a man so beautiful but his soul
Was pure black; use to beat her for the sheer delight of hearing her beg and scream
She thanked god for letting her escape with her life intact still the scars remain
And the screams She still hears in her head, but She survived
Music played low in the background smoke filled the lounge and She added her own
Cigarette smoke to the mix
Waiter walked by She halted his steps ordering another Jack Daniels on the rocks
To many nights spent alone, to many sad songs played over in her mind
Why was She sitting here adding and subtracting mistakes and consequences?
One tear slid down her over made-up cheek to be chased by another and another
The song became louder inside her mind a song She heard too often
Rhythm of the sound surrounded her, the beat thumping making her temples
Pulse in and out
She tried to put the glass to her lips her hand shook with its attempt to connect
Liquor splashed over the rim running down her finger tips
She licked the drops mixed in with her now flowing tears
The looks and stares She received did nothing to combat the war that was going on
Inside her as She reflected all her failed relationships
Some She truly loved, there were a few just for sex, a couple for their outward
Beauty, they lacked beauty on the inside, one or two She could have married
Now the wrinkles were a threat to her beauty
Her body has lost that voluptuousness that drove men wild
She was tired and defeated in her own self pity
Letting life beat her as that man did touched her soul and robbed
Her of loving herself more than She could love any man
Cigarette burned to the end She reached down and put it
Out, took the last swig of her drink
She stood on wobbling legs and staggered to the door
Reached for the handle to let herself out
A hand reached from behind her stopping her before She
Could leave She turned to look at who prevented
 Her from disappearing into the night


The Beat Goes On....

The Beat Goes On……
See the world through the vacant eyes, concave expressions
 People from all walks of life but here there is no distinction
Ethnicity, culture, race; rich, poor, poor, rich
Some trying to find their way, others the way they’ve
Found have left them in this position
Some smiled, most didn’t
A few laughed, some joked to pass the time begging to retain some dignity
At the mercy of system that had no soul
Waiting to be helped; for someone to care for the plight they’re in
The beat goes on……
Voices drowned out loneliness, hopelessness, being forgotten
Time slowly crept on every now and then a glance at the clock
Revealed a second had past
The beat goes on…….
This is everyday life, soldiers wagging war to survive, just to live to tell the tale
In world full of plenty, but they are not getting any of the fruit
That’s ripen and ready for harvest
Instead their stomach growled reminding them why
They’re in this place of hell
The beat goes on…….
Robots going through the motion, no emotions
Numb to feelings eyes looked on seeing nothing focused on a
Number to be called, listening carefully for a name to be shouted
Out over a PA system that crackled and popped to be heard over the
Raised tones angered for the lack of respect
The beat goes on…….
I heard some praying, most were cussing their fate
A few “why me’s”, could be heard, an old woman sat in a corner
 Singing broken tunes to match broken hearts and displaced roots,
 Only music I heard in my head was a
 Song my momma used to sang, hoping the tune would keep me fed
And the demons in their bed
The beat goes on……..
A child looked up to his mother; she smiled down at him tears in her eyes
As she held onto the hand of her baby girl rubbing her swollen belly
Hunger rumbled in my soul, malnutrition ravaged my bones as I sat too
Becoming one of them
The beat goes on and on and on……..

Poetry Is My Husband


Connubial to words that come alive

Keeps me fulfilled never wanting

Strong dialect sometimes gives way to

 Passionate tongue

Creating a haven with each stroke of a pen

And my refuge from storms of life I keep within

Gives me release to express who I am

At times I am lost

Through spoken words I channel peace

 Finding myself

In all its devotion, I am in no way

Left feeling unloved

With every verse it is akin to making love

Intertwined in rhythms of emotions

Conjugal souls’ truss by lexis

Together we awaken desires

Fulfill dreams

Create an aura of mystery

Spellbound woven around destiny

Yours and mine

Forever we are one and the same

Infinity, infinitely wisdom

To make laughter sound in the

Heart instead of sorrow

 But sorrows glutinous hunger

Is a montage of delectable

Roseate our ingenuity cannot ignore

Bring release to a tormented soul

Kismet is our spirit my, poetry Husband

He is the color of the rainbow

Freedom of expression

Creation born to my imagination

 I take you as my inspiration to

 Give me insight and empathy to write, explore

Unearth buried feelings, delve into the psyche

Analyze the subconscious discover

 Hidden metaphors

And similes this we shall carry out

Until death we do part,

I’ll take you with me to the grave

Behind we will leave a legacy

 A perfect marriage of poetry

Poetry is my Husband

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sexual Combustion

I’m ready as I lay here
Waiting for you
To come into the room
My body is pulsating anticipating
What’s about to take place
The door slowly opens
You stand there, taking in my
Nakedness
 I read the message in your eyes
You can’t hide the desire
Or disguise your hunger
Your appetite matches mine
Hungry for you
Craving you
Longing for you to possess
Let’s do this right
Don’t be gentle make love to me all night
Soft caress wet kisses
Put it on me now don’t give it to me weak
Make my body scream out
In pain and pleasure
Bodies sweaty sliding up and down
Come into me no don’t take it easy
Give it to me like you want me to
Give it back to you dirty, naughty, and nasty
That’s it baby right there
Let your fingers dance all over my body
Now your turn as I take you into my hands
How does that feel
Like it when I stroke you there
How about here
Roll over
Let me ride you into the sunset
Faster, faster, don’t stop
I cry out your name
What’s my name baby?
Say it to me now
Holler, scream, thrashing about
Damn this is pure heaven
Now take me to hell
Bring me back to heaven
Angels voice harmonize
To our love making
Hearts thumping matching the
Rhythm of the bed whining
From the pressure we’re putting
On it
Had enough if not
I won’t stop
We can do this all night long
Moaning, swearing, goddamn it this is good
No! More to ecstasy satisfying
You feed my hunger, I quench
Your thirst
Move it this way now find
My spot oh you’re so good
No, you’re goddamn hot
Come on baby come onnnnnn………
Explosion bodies burst into flames
Bed is gone smoke and ashes
Fly around the room
Sexual combustion


As I Sleep


As I Dream
Let’s meet tonight baby in my dreams where together we can
Drift amongst the clouds fly up to heaven and
 Party with the angels stay there for a while
 Slowly we’ll drift back down to earth
Where we’ll run through the lilies of the field
 After a while when we can no longer breathe we’ll lay down and
Make sweet love
I cry out your name
You sing mine
Together caught up in delicious rapture
Lets meet in my dreams while I sleep, I’m awake
With you here all the pain doesn’t exist
You’re perfect not a defect
And I’m your princess, cherished and not defamed
Everything is perfect in this reverie there’s no hate
No cruel words form or spoken
All hurt is erased
Or mistakes are washed away
 Only you, me and this ideal setting
A place in my dream

Missing Something

I’m missing him and I don’t want to be having these feelings
I’m missing him despite the shit he put me through
No I won’t go back I don’t believe in taking steps backwards
I just want this damn longing to stop
Cut my heart out and place it on the ground
To be stomped on all over again damn him
and I am damned for thinking of him
I’m missing him, gotta get that poison out of my system
How do I do it what’s going to erase his face, his touch
The way we made love
I hear a song and suddenly I’m reliving memories of him
I’m insane I have to be for these feelings to be in control of me
No I won’t go back I don’t believe in taking steps backwards
I’m missing him and I hate myself for this weakness
I need to purge him from my soul
Is he facing this agony too?
Or is out of sight out of mind
I’m missing him but not for long