Decisions

Doughty choices not committal to the grave

Epoch of emotions ageless as time

Contagion of despair touches us all

Idiom of words not making sense

Sublime affirmation trusting in paroxysm of untruths

Immersed in making sense out of nothing

Opulent opinion of one’s self   

Nonentity thoughts divulge ignorance

Surrealistic end to painful

DECISIONS

Running Away To Something

Tears falling I don’t even know why

All the pain you caused me and here

I sit crying because of something lost

Broken heart will heal

Soul comforted

Spirit rejoined

In all that’s transpired I still question why

If your love for me was real than why

Am I soaked in tears?

Washing my body clean of

Any memories of you

If it was that easy

What’s going to erased them from

My mind

Running away, running to something

Believing there is a future where

I can survive without you

Maybe the memories will never

Be completely exorcised 

The Devil You Say?

I've heard tell that the devil is real
He walks the earth feeding
on the suffering and despair
The evil he unleashes
tragedy and sickness are
His trademark
I've heard ask” have you
seen this evil one?”
Death is his friend and he loves sin
I sit and look across at you
thinking of all that you do
I hate you, I despise you, and I curse your birth
You've given me nothing but heartache
if I had the courage to walk out
that door
Begin something new without you
love myself more
not be your doormat and stepping stone
I've cried so many tears
enough to fill the Pacific Ocean
My feelings you don’t care about
you've demonstrated your
lack of feelings, with your lack of action
Hurt I guess you can say I am
disillusioned to your sins
Evil reborn in you
Devil walks among us
and he sits across from
ME

This Is My Rage and I'm Not Insane

I’m so tired of the shit I have to put up with

 Deal with struggle through

Kiss my ass

Bullshit at every turn my shoes are so fucked up

All the shit I walk through

I mad not angry that’s much to polite

Fuck this damn life

Greedy motherfukus thinking only of themselves

Selfish sons of bitches it’s them and fucks

Everyone else

Who the hell do they think they are?

A god or some idol I’m suppose

To bow down to and worship

I think they must have smoked too much

Fuckin crack

Every dog has his day and a good dog has two

A stupid dog has none

Stupid bitch your life is done

Rot away alone and unforgiven

You hurt the ones you love

And then turn around and expect

To be loved in return

You’re a joke a court jester

This is my rage and I’m not insane

For feeling this way

Cut you, you don’t bleed red

You bleed green ‘cause you’re

A coward and it seems only in your eyes

Do you have power?

Watch out David was a small man

But he killed Goliath

Going Through the Motion

Staring at the ceiling, giving names to the
cracks, “I think I’ll call you Jimmy and you Sam maybe you Jack”
Saying all the necessary words
To get you going
“Oh Baby you’re so good, yeah right there, that’s the
way I like it”
My mind going blank as you pump harder
A song starts to play in my head replacing
The vacant space in my mind
I’m humming along, you think I moan
Faster and faster you go
Will this ever end I’m wanting
to know,
“Say my name” you shout
Damn if I know what name you want
me to holler out, ” Daddy, Big Daddy, Mac Daddy, what?”
I just wish you’d hurry up and finish 'cause
My head is spinning
and you cologne is no longer
turning me on
So I play along moan and whimper
with false pleasure
I think I know what I must do
To get you off me
“Baby, I think I hear your car alarm going off”
Yep that did it he was off of me faster
Than Jesse Owens
Going through the motions
*Bet you thought I was going to fake it*

Images

Horrible images running

 through my head

Gun shots sounding off

in the distance

I see a blood moon setting

 Awaiting a sunrise

that will never come

Tears fill the land

Cries ring forth

The wailing so

Horrid, I close my ears

To the sound

Putrid flesh I smell

Hangs in the night air

Moaning and weeping

Shrill voices sing out

To a God gone and forgotten

Blood flows like a river

Souls carried away

In the torrent

Lifeless, ghost of youth

Pass away

Horrid images running through

My head

Save them, save them

The walking dead

Too many images castrate

Them from my mind

I see the spirits of the

Lost and forgotten

Gehenna is their home

Images to bare, my hell

So alone

So alone

Sound of Drums

Mythical rhythm warriors dancing, prancing

calling to ancient gods, the beat gets louder

with each beat of the drums

the night creatures circle in wonder of the sound

they howl to the beat as if its speaking in their tongue

Warriors chant calling to brave hearts

lost in battle their ghost answers in the night wind

The drum beats louder and louder drowning out

their cries

A single ember leaps from the fire pit

taking on a new spirit, it dances to the tune of the

sound of the drums leaving a trail of ash in its wake

Sound of drums beat ageless moaning they weep

sadness pounded out with each beat

Universe so vast mystical, illusive, untouchable

Sound of drums brings them closer reaching out a hand holding

mystery in their palm washing away the tears

they dance to the sound of drums a new spirit of hope is born

Looking For Mr. Jones

Loosing myself to you
Oneness
Opinion of others don't matter
Kindness in abundance
Insecurities met with self assure
Never asking for more than given
Gentle persuasion


Focus on only the good
Odium of emotions you erase
Remembrance of empty days


Materialize to haunt
Rushing into a subconscious mind


Jaded perception
Omniscience wisdom
Nude feelings expose
Explosion of corrosive thoughts
Save from self
        Looking for Mr. Jones

Distorted Picture

Desirable to look at every man's dream
Immure in her own world
Secrets held close in her heart
To many let downs
Over shadowed by sorrow
Reality viewed through closed eyes
Tendency to fall under spells 
Essence of spirit dulled by lost of innocence
Decrepitude of an image reflect in a mirror

Presage of her life carried on the wings of a black crow
Interlace with destiny
Circumvent death, she laughed in its face
Tourniquet twisted inside her soul
Ubiquity of her love was felt in the darkness
Remedy of lost youth retouched by the stroke of a paint brush
Erased away an ugly
DISTORTED PICTURE        

Love Takes Me Higher

Love takes me higher
all my heartache is erased
healing is loves power
chasing away darken clouds
out comes the sun to embrace
my spirit, my soul
awakening a flower
that has seen too many
sad days
turning my tears into joy
returning hope I thought
I'd lost forever
I can see the future
where once I didn't
believe I had one
a flower in full bloom
destiny is no longer
a stranger

Widowed Mother (Poem Excerpt from Illusion)

Somewhere in the night lays a shattered heart
singing out for love
The song can't be heard for it lies deep within her soul
She sings of sorrow, of afflictions heaped upon her spirit
She sings of her regrets to many to be numbered
I hear her song, loud as the rolling thunder
A song of a woman betrayed and angered
She sings of the darkness she calls her own
She sings of the man that left her cold
She grieves for a child she was to bear dead in her womb
She sings to God, pleading for salvation
lifting her voice up to the heavens
She sings of the widowed mother
I can hear her, can't you?
I can see her, can't you?
I can feel the anger, the rage
I sense the pain strongly pumping through her veins
Listen, listen and you to can hear
the song that is as strong as the distant thunder
It is the song of the widowed mother

Don't Damn the Damned

Don't damn the damned
Be scared to embrace the situation of their plight
Fear their decisions to run or fight
Give into the shame of their name
Refuse to let society place a label on them
Hide in a hole buried beneath the ground
Curse the color of their skin because

Of it they're not worthy to be loved
Reach out your hand to them
With the swiftness of a serpent they

Strike back
Hold no grudge, the damned are human too
Full of faults and attitudes
Restless and roaming the great vast land
In search of anything that will
Make sense to a meaningless life
Share in their pain empathize as
They struggle to remain sane
In this world of a plastic bubble
Count the hours and not the days
Of their survival
Shout with them their frustration
Level a wall like the Walls of Jericho as they
Fell down
Stomp out hatred
Let the wind blow in love
Confused the damned are
What is all the confusion for?
Trying to understand how wrong 
Makes right and right you
Have to fight for every little thing
There is no justice in a world cold
To them they are damned without being known
What makes them who they are, their strength their weakness
Don't damn the damned tears they cry are real as yours and mine
The pain that's felt when betrayal is a way of life
People sit on pedestals looking down their righteous nose
Where is my sin they ask, but your sin I point out at
Every chance
You'll find no peccadillo in me
I'm pure as the driven snow
Chest puffed out
Pride they climb into bed with each night
But the damned know when they lie down to sleep
And they fall away and dream
Pride is sweet but if there's no one to lying on the other side
Pride is empty as it is revealing
Don't damn the damned their not asking for
Your pity not seeking acceptance, looking for understanding,
Give them the benefit of the doubt
They are more than a face in a lonely crowd
Who might the DAMNED be?
You, me, any one, every one
Don't damn the dammed

Madness

It's madness that's what it is
To keep going around in circles never coming to an end
Chasing after invisible dreams
Falling into nightmares it always seems
So easy to fall asleep and dream of madness secretly
Oh if only I could escape for one day
Sanity may return
Madness is forever near
It doesn't let me forget who is running the show
I scream inside my head for this madness to
disappear
It only laughs at me and keeps up its charade
Teasing and taunting me till I'm in the grave
Even there I will not escape for Madness will
follow me into eternity
I'm safe no where
Madness

Life's Seed

Life's full of disappointments
I'm going to roll all mine up                  
Stuff 'em in a joint and                            
Smoke my troubles away            So much heartache 
Watch the haze dissipate
Into nothingness

   

                                            The seed of hate
                                             planted in a bed of
                                             dampen earth
                                             watered with tears   
So much pain                   fertilized by word
                                             spoken in ignorance
                                             The seed sprouted
                                              roots growing strong
                                              and firm, wrapped
                                              their vines around a
                                              heart choking out love 

Too Hot

Make me quiver

when you deliver

a love so explosive

I melt into molten lava

Volcano eruption

Too hot 

seismic activity rocks the 

earth's core as we go for  more

two souls become one whole

A uniqueness, too sweet

to be left incomplete

Too hot

as you give up apart of

yourself 

and taken on a part of me

Too hot

desire, lust, sensual craving

feed on your hunger

juice of delectable nectar

Too hot

I burn

you sizzle

flames erupt

we dance to a feverish tempo

Too hot

screams of pleasure echo

Baby, don't stop keep

coming , coming into me

grab me. hold me

love me, love me

til the fire is no longer

burning, embers slowly die
away

Too hot

A Last Love Part 1

Laying next to him, inhaling
his scent
A dream, she dreamed a thousand times
was now reality
She beheld all his beauty
His naked powerful form glistened with sweat
She drew closer, wanting to feel
the beat of his heart
With each beat she felt complete
She closed her eyes, made a wish
open them again
He stared into her soul
everything exposed
this was her love, not first, will
be her last
Catching a tear that had fallen with
his fingertip
He slowly traced her cheek, where
the tear drop had been
Running his finger through her
hair, still holding her in his spell
This was his love
not first, will be his last

Muzik

Muzik is a universal language, doesn't matter from

what walk of life you're from

It speaks to the heart, the soul

Up lifting a spirit broken and cold

Comforting and spiritual, making you

rejoice with each note

Muzik is a universal language

go out and explore the different beats

the different sounds

Each culture, diverse and yet

with Muzik we are all one

Muzik

Love's Death Sentence

Life, weeping willow
Over grown
Very tired
Every breath drawn
Solitude gone

Delivery from evil
Excruciating torment
Ascension into hell
Treachery revealed
Holocaust of soul

Seraphic judgement
Epithet of beautiful words
Nakedness exploited
Traduce a name
Execution of a heart
Necropolis opens its gate
Catacombs await
Evermore is the way of
LOVE'S DEATH SENTENCE

He Said She Said

He said, Lord send me a good woman, one who is kind
and sweet, pleasing to my eyes

She said, God give me a man who can stand
and hold his head high, with strength and character
He said, woman to man is a completeness a
compliment an extension of who he is

She said, man to woman can sometimes be a stumbling
block, lost in his identity self discovery walked away
taking with it believing in herself

He said, woman is  my love, my life, I'm her Prince
I'll slay all her dragons

She said, my castle has become my prison, man
has placed me in a dungeon, thrown away the key

He said, woman you are mine, my property
I bought and paid for you

She said, man has turned me into his slave
I didn't realize he was Satan in disguise

He said, woman wash my clothes, fix my meals
and pleasure me

She said, Lord why did you send this
man to me, what sin so great could I've
committed to be cast into this hell

He said, her beauty is no more,
her worth is no more, what good is she to me
maybe I should get another

She said, I loved you once but no more
because of that love I let you enslave me
my heart as much as you've enslaved my soul
He said, I'm your god, you obey me

She said, man you speak like a dribbling fool

He said, what! woman who do you think you're about
you ain't shit 'cause I made sure you're not

She said, man of my broken heart, this is good bye as she pulled
the trigger, stepped over his crumbled body and walked out
of her dungeon

Safe

I felt a hand gently touch my heart
I smelled the familiar scent
A soft kiss placed on my forehead
A wisp of air brushed against my cheek
A memory of memories rushing back
I closed my eyes  holding on to
The moment I was in
Afraid if I opened them my dream would end
I heard a whisper faint as a humming birds wing whisking by
A thousands rays of light washed over my closed lids
The warmth of the rays left me wanting to feel more
Held spellbound in this euphoria I was in
Cocoon of protection
Lost forever in a comforting embrace
Arms I know I couldn't see, but feel
Resting  my head on a shoulder
Absorbing all my pain
Slowly slipping further into.......
Safe