Wounded Soul :)Poem from Illusion

Forgiveness is the wind

blowing away darkened clouds
Behind lies the sun

rising to smile... revealing a sky
Blue as a ribbon 

tied around a heart 

that's beating
Out a rhythm to a 

soundless soul

Cry

Go a head bare your soul

You don't have to be strong for the world

Give in to the emotions you have so valiantly

Fought off

Give in to the pain, that has no name

Tired? I know you are

Tired of trying to shoulder responsibility alone

Carrying around the guilt if you let everyone down

Fair? no it's not

You're the one who is up all night

Release that hurt

Don't be afraid

Cleansing your spirit is always ok

Go a head, the gods are listening

Sorrow, is something we all have inside of us

This is your healing, purge those feelings and

Cry

Kiss Goodnight :)Poem from Illusion

Heal me, put me back together,

 Broken and drowning in my own tears
Lift me up higher to grasp the clouds
Give me the wings of angels so that I
May soar above the heavens
Reconcile my heart to the pain
Give me rebirth of a new spirit
Heal me, make me whole, and kiss me
Goodnight

Crystal Ball

I gaze into a crystal ball to see my future
The ball was blank, is that what my future looks like
I couldn't accept it, so I glimpse at it again, still the same result
In true frustration, this was my last hope I picked up the crystal ball
And throw it hitting a wall shattering in millions of pieces
Symbolic of my life, a million directions, none of them leading anywhere
One piece landed at my feet
I went to pick it up and stop, staring back at me was
My mother's face, sadness in her eyes
One tear trapped on her eyelash
I picked up the piece of shattered glass
Looking closely at her face and then I realize
I was starring at myself

Rose

A rose striving to bloom
In a garden
Full of thorns and thistles
Chocking off its life
It hangs it head
While watching each of its petals fall
The sun can no longer break through
The gray mist that hovers above
The air is pungent from the carcasses
That lay near
A rose of beauty so delicate
Smells of sweetness
It's all in vain
No one will ever see its loveliness
Breathe in its fragrance
No one will behold its grace
No one will miss it; it's just another
Flower gone
Swallowed up in a bed of evil
To weak to fight for the right to belong
It hangs its head in defeat
As the last petal falls

Arsenic Love

He use to love me
Call me his queen
His love became dark, grotesque
I became afraid
Nothing was good enough
Not even how I said his name
In my state of mind I was benumb
I couldn't even feel shame
For what I'd become
Seeing myself through his eyes
It reflected all the lies
He loved me no one else would
To him I was a prisoner held
Captive in his heart
His love was corruptible, corrosive
Contaminating me
Time has no age
Age has time
My heart beat the rhythm of a ghost
It beats the rhythm of the damned
This was his love for me
He took my will
Replaced it with fear
Smothered my self esteem
Killed my self worth
He couldn't touch my soul

Suppress my spirit

Manipulate :)Poem from Illusion

Strings pulled, dancing to a tune
 

Mouth speaks, not my words
 

Thoughts formed, not conveyed
 

Feelings ignored, they don't exist
 

Empty, mindless, vacant stare, soulless eyes
 

Hollow shell